September 2011
56 posts
Enter haiku,
You fuck with my mind,
But there is more to explore.
A beautiful find.
Right person, wrong time.
We’re in another lifetime.
It’s a vast open.
Meeting new faces.
Soulful recuperation.
Retreat to my mind.
You aren’t all true.
I’ve seen, but do I believe?
Let go, just let go.
I stay, but make room.
You stay, in forgotten thoughts.
Experiencing.
Until I replace,
I shall dive into the sea.
I won’t hold my breath.
-Colleen
“
To be beautiful in the eyes of another, Elika, simply forget they’re watching.
Tallyho,
The Universe
“Now won’t you run and tell your boyfriend, tell him don’t hold his breath for me.”
—
lmao, it's been four days
here at UCSD.
making new friends is fun. (;
My days be like,
beachbonfire. adventuretime on sketchy roads. class cancellations. money blown on books. someone asking me to sext, LOL. people getting into skate accidents and losing teef. getting my computer hooked up w/ tons of programs. getting hyped to join MASA and KP! being ana’s honorary roommate. realizing that walking ucsd will keep me from getting the freshman 15. playing concentration, never have i ever, nasty stick, and pterodactyl. massage trains. movie nights. eating.
so since yesterday all my classes were cancelled (you can’t have a discussion or lab without having a lecture, duh!) today is my real first day of class, JAMpacked with lectures! :)
LETS GOOOOO.
Tuesday, September 20th 2011.
Today we talked about everything! We seemed to talk on and on — like we just vibe off of each other. We’re confused, so what? We’re just going with the flow, and we acknowledged that you’re going to simply have to make a decision. Timing is interesting. You sneak me those cute kisses, and love to just hold me. You love to just be with me, and you can’t wait to see me.
Interesting.
It’s interesting because it’s something to appreciate. We talked about our love for spontaneous adventures. We sat in the car at a park in Mira Mesa and just talked and talked, and sang, and talked about our “relationship.” The word relationship is so… harsh and overused, but it’s the only way to literally describe.
It’s crazy to just feel our vibes, and the energy we share. Listening to the soundtrack of the world around us is amazing. It’s as if when I’m with you, it’s like I can give the world as much as it gives me. I told you about how I want to explore the world, and know it. I want to feel everything it has to offer. I want to travel. You shushed me, and was like.. “stop! I like what you’re saying too much!”
Then randomly we went to go eat indian food, and had little spurts of resting our heads on each other’s shoulders.. or bumping arms while we sat, or scooting a little closer. It’s like we’re too stubborn. We’re too shy. We’re not allowing ourselves to feel the emotions that are underlying, but they simply just want to emerge.
So we ate, and we realized that you gave me your cough. asshole. HAHA!
Then we went back to the park, but then we just layed in the grass, ran, gave each other piggy back rides, hopped fences, and just had random moments of hugs and handstands, and you picking me up, and just… fun!
We walked, and for once in a long time, I felt like things we’re going just fine. This was nice.
You’re so intriguing.
Note to Self
Me and T broke up: August 11th, 2011.
Me and L broke up: August 28th, 2009.
“Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times. Once, you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. Once you must fall in love with someone you believe is perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as anything less than you deserve. And once, you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be. And when you’re through will all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that needed you the most. But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.”
—(via eletheowl)
“We like hanging out with each other because it’s like we’re getting to know ourselves.”
—GM
September 15th, 2011
September 15th seems to have been a good day for the past THREE years! According to Facebook, my status on Sept. 15, 2009 was: Today feels like a GOOD day. One Sept. 15, 2010, it was: Just performed at PetcoPark, saw Manny Pacquiao, and now I’m home and happy!
I must say, September 15th, 2011 is: Today feels like a good day. Today… IS a good day.
Today we watched Columbiana together. :) It was definitely a dope movie, and I love how you just engulfed me with hugs and cuddling today, and your cute kisses! :)
We’re now in this mutual “I like you” stage.. but I kinda want it to stay at just that. I think we both are just trying to enjoy this secret love affair kind of thing, and it’s starting to seem like we’re both in denial that we actually like each other. Well, at least I’m in denial. I don’t exactly want to like you. But I know I do.
But I don’t want to be with you right now. If it happens eventually, then so be it.. but I want to go with the flow, and enjoy my time being SINGLE! Because single is just way too fun!
Heads up to friends with benefits…cause I’m down. :)
SO EXCITED FOR TUESDAY!
I get to model a bit, and be the face for makeup and hair tutorials
