My days be like, beachbonfire. adventuretime on sketchy roads. class cancellations. money blown on books. someone asking me to sext, LOL. people getting into skate accidents and losing teef. getting my computer hooked up w/ tons of programs. getting hyped to join MASA and KP! being ana’s honorary roommate. realizing that walking ucsd will keep me from getting the freshman 15. playing concentration, never have i ever, nasty stick, and pterodactyl. massage trains. movie nights. eating.
so since yesterday all my classes were cancelled (you can’t have a discussion or lab without having a lecture, duh!) today is my real first day of class, JAMpacked with lectures! :)
Today we talked about everything! We seemed to talk on and on — like we just vibe off of each other. We’re confused, so what? We’re just going with the flow, and we acknowledged that you’re going to simply have to make a decision. Timing is interesting. You sneak me those cute kisses, and love to just hold me. You love to just be with me, and you can’t wait to see me.
It’s interesting because it’s something to appreciate. We talked about our love for spontaneous adventures. We sat in the car at a park in Mira Mesa and just talked and talked, and sang, and talked about our “relationship.” The word relationship is so… harsh and overused, but it’s the only way to literally describe.
It’s crazy to just feel our vibes, and the energy we share. Listening to the soundtrack of the world around us is amazing. It’s as if when I’m with you, it’s like I can give the world as much as it gives me. I told you about how I want to explore the world, and know it. I want to feel everything it has to offer. I want to travel. You shushed me, and was like.. “stop! I like what you’re saying too much!”
Then randomly we went to go eat indian food, and had little spurts of resting our heads on each other’s shoulders.. or bumping arms while we sat, or scooting a little closer. It’s like we’re too stubborn. We’re too shy. We’re not allowing ourselves to feel the emotions that are underlying, but they simply just want to emerge.
So we ate, and we realized that you gave me your cough. asshole. HAHA! Then we went back to the park, but then we just layed in the grass, ran, gave each other piggy back rides, hopped fences, and just had random moments of hugs and handstands, and you picking me up, and just… fun! We walked, and for once in a long time, I felt like things we’re going just fine. This was nice.
“Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times. Once, you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. Once you must fall in love with someone you believe is perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as anything less than you deserve. And once, you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be. And when you’re through will all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that needed you the most. But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.”—(via eletheowl)
September 15th seems to have been a good day for the past THREE years! According to Facebook, my status on Sept. 15, 2009 was: Today feels like a GOOD day. One Sept. 15, 2010, it was: Just performed at PetcoPark, saw Manny Pacquiao, and now I’m home and happy!
I must say, September 15th, 2011 is: Today feels like a good day. Today… IS a good day.
Today we watched Columbiana together. :) It was definitely a dope movie, and I love how you just engulfed me with hugs and cuddling today, and your cute kisses! :)
We’re now in this mutual “I like you” stage.. but I kinda want it to stay at just that. I think we both are just trying to enjoy this secret love affair kind of thing, and it’s starting to seem like we’re both in denial that we actually like each other. Well, at least I’m in denial. I don’t exactly want to like you. But I know I do.
But I don’t want to be with you right now. If it happens eventually, then so be it.. but I want to go with the flow, and enjoy my time being SINGLE! Because single is just way too fun!
Heads up to friends with benefits…cause I’m down. :)
We watched Bucky Larson — One of the most awkward, inappropriate movies ever. But coincidentally, since we watched the 10:15am showing, there was only one other person in the theater besides us! So, what the heck. Hahaha!
I like having fun with you. But I’m a little thrown off. You called me last night at 3:30am, (so I guess that’s this morning) and you were just coming from your homeboy’s house. You told me it was your day off Monday, and you wanted to hang out. So you told me to give you a wake up call so that you could come over early so we could catch a movie before I went to work. So we watched a movie, and cuddled and such, then we went and ate pho. I paid for the movie, you paid for our lunch. I like how that worked out. :)
But the weird thing is, you tell me you like me, and you just love to cuddle and hold me close and all that mushy bullshit, but today you said, “Thanks for being my friend. ;)” I’m not sure if that was suggestive or literal. And today it was so cute how we sang, “Just Friends” by Musiq Soulchild, and “Spend My Life With You” by Eric Benet together in my car. I love when we sing together, cause it’s just so natural and fun. I feel like in that way, we kind of connect on another level? And how we were just laughing and teasing each other in the movie theater, and scaring each other with the paranormal activity trailer, and laughing about anything and everything. I love how you always pull my close and wrap your arms around me. :)
You confuse me a bit, but at the same time.. I’m kinda just going with the flow. ..Because anyways, I want to be single going into college, I just wish it would start already so I wouldn’t have so much time to spend with you.
where there are no awkward moments and you both contribute to the conversation, have a couple of laughs and just be able to relate on a lot of the same things. Those are the people that become life long friends.
was the first time we actually kicked it outside of one of our houses! :) We went to eat at Tofu House, singing songs on the new “soul & vitality” CD I made, featuring John Legend, Adele, India Arie, Lauryn Hill, etc..
I love how much fun we had today just relating to each other! Our musical taste, little quirks like weird food habits and travel urges..
You: ”When I was little, I hated when my food touched each other. But now I just mix everything together!” -You Me: ”When I was little, instead of eating a taco the “normal” way, I emptied it out onto a plate or something and then crushed the shell on top.” You: HIGHFIVE* “That’s something I would do!”
And I loved how we were just singing together, and talking about starting to dance again.
You even paid for our lunch today at Tofu House, even after I offered! You said that I’ll get the bill next time, cause you don’t mind paying. You said you don’t mind paying, and it’s not worth the little mini debate about who would pay or not! We can share :) Next time I’ll get the bill, I promise!
I’m also excited for our dim sum date soon! :) Whenever we both have a freeway, you offered to pay for dim sum! :D Excited… (;
I felt like we could just talk about anything and everything, and just laugh about the littlest things!
After our lunch, we headed back to my house, again bonding over singing songs in the car that we both love! You told me I should start singing, or even start training or working on my voice with a vocal coach or lessons, because you like my singing. I think you’re crazy, but I think it’s cute that you like to listen. You even said that if I did so, you’d love to write my songs… and get 10% (; haha!
But anyways, back at my house.. It was so odd that my dog LOVED you. She even peed out of excitement -__- and I’ve never seen her do that in my life! I guess you’re good with animals, or Minnie just really likes you. And then after that odd experience.. haha, we went in my backyard and explored a little. Then back to my room to cuddle! Cuddling was lovely! And I loved how we just kept moving around (well more so me moving around) and were just laughing and flirting. And then you found an ant on your arm, and then you got up in a frantic search for ants, showing me that we had the same urgent fear/phobia-like distaste for ants! Pwaha, we’re so weird.
It’s weird to think that I really like you, because I don’t know what my feelings are. I’m not sure I’m “falling in like” with you, but I definitely like spending time with you.
It made me wonder a little how you feel about me, because when today when we were talking, we realized that all your free time was spent with me. You work long hours, and whenever you have any downtime, we end up hanging out. It felt nice to know that you want to spend any free time you have making memories with me, and getting to know me better.
I’m happy. I’m liking this. :) I think you’re fun. But that’s all I’m sure of for now.
Blackout 2011 from Yuma, Arizona, all the way through San Diego (and even down to Mexico!)
I was on the road when it happened. -__- I was just leaving La Mesa from meeting up with my friend Minh to discuss some summer fashion projects for Mahal Style. I was headed toward Point Loma to pick up my brother from HTMMA in Point Loma, and that’s where the traffic was HORRIBLE. Of course, the blackout just happened, and people were being courteous on Rosecrans, taking turns at the stop lights and what not. However, on the way home from Point Loma, people were getting rowdy and driving on the wrong side of the road, and cussing each other out, and getting aggravated. -__- It took like an hour to get to the freeway, and there were tons of accidents.
All good though! My brother and I got home safe and my mom was home already. My dad got home soon after. We ate dinner outside. Grilled fish and rice (cooked over a fire, not in the rice cooker, cause obviously no electricity). It was nice! :)
I think it was a bit of a blessing to have the power out for awhile. It made way for family time, candlelight, a starlit night, and deep thinking! It also trips me out how many people really care to check in to know you’re safe. Thanks for all the texts and calls, especially from outside le golden state! Mad love! Here’s a little snippet of my night! (;
I think I already put this on my tumblr somewhere, but it’s relevant.
Hands down, I’m too proud for love. But with eyes shut, it’s you I’m thinking of.
But how we move from A to B it can’t be up to me. Cause you don’t know, who I was before you. Basically to see a change in me, I’d be losing, so I just ignore you. But you’re on my mind. But maybe in time, I’ll tell you.
A little bit in love with you I guess that I’m a little bit in love with you.
I know you told me, break their hearts. But it’s you I wanna take apart. And I will never ever be the first to say it. But still I, they know I.. I hope they never find out What they already know. As soon as it’s official, we’ll have to let it go. So we don’t confirm the fling. Keep avoiding all the questions. You could teach me many things.. I’m just scared to learn a lesson.
The pressures on, both hearts beat like a metronome. Both n’sync like a Justin song, feels so right but it’s just so wrong. I wonder where my whereabouts? Where niggas that I know, tryna talk my girl out. And her friends say I ain’t the one to go for.. She just get jealous ‘cause you always get approached more. Oh, well, tell her fall back, caught up in some more shit. Tell her call back, tell her get a man that ain’t cheating on her ass. With a girl that I know, yeah, tell her all that. And as for you I think I know you’re the one The closest I’ve come. I’m probably.