What the hell do you think you’re gonna accomplish with this? You’re the one making a fool of yourself and I don’t get why this even concerns you in the first place. This has NOTHING to do with you so why don’t you accept it or GTFO! Swear, you need to get off my back, cause the only one making it a problem is YOU.
I’ve realized that i have everything i need right now. i’m extremely happy, and i just want to get away so i have some sort of an outlet to just release it all.
I really hope this roadtrip that we’re planning works out, because i think it’s well deserved — we need it. :)
I’m listening to a lot of “feel good” songs, sitting here typing this in shorts and a huge t-shirt, contemplating how many blessings I really have in my life.. I don’t think it can get any better than this!
A few random thoughts:
Giving up one year is nothing compared to a lifetime. :)
I don’t need to worry about the negative, cause I have faith that things will turn out just fine.
I’m bad.. ): WE’RE BAD! D: We need to get better.. ha.
LIFE IS SO GOOD!
I’m very comfortable right now..
I CAN’T WAIT TO BUY SCHOOL SUPPLIES! :D
WTH, I’m applying for college soon.
I love YOU!
It’s kinda nice to know that certain people still care.
I think I’m watching Inception today.. FINALLY. -____-
I wish I could blog better right now, but my mind is just all over the place, and it’s definitely not a bad thing! I’m so happy, and SO excited for whatever comes my way. I’m in love with the beauty of life, and its just become this amazing feeling that I have no idea how to explain..
keep on asking and you will recieve, so that your joy may be full and complete
We are trying to obtain by our efforts what God wants to give us by His grace. But in order for Him to give us what we need, we must be humble enough to quit trying and start trusting. We must be willing to stop doing and start asking.
Everything will happen on its own time. “Ask and you shall recieve” because prayers are never left unanswered.
Sure it was something so small, but the fact of the matter is that I made a difference in someone’s life.
I was in Border’s with my friend Teejay, looking at books on Greece while sitting in the back of the children’s section because there were no other seats.
When we were just about finished, an elderly woman approached us and said, "Excuse me, do you know where I can find books on turtles? Maybe stories on turtles? I’ve been looking all over the place, and I thought I would find something here."
At first I thought, I don’t work here, but I can help you look? But then she continued, “Because my nephew is getting engaged, and I want to get him an engagement present. In my family, we believe that turtles represent, 'Slowly but surely, you will get there' and that the behavior of turtles shows long lasting life and relationships. This is not a wedding present, this is an engagement present.”
So I look at Teejay, and immediately we begin getting up to help this woman. But she says, “Oh no, just tell me where to find them, dears.. I don’t want you going to trouble for me.”
But we insisted that we would help her, because we wanted to and that it would be no trouble at all.
So first, we headed to the animals section. Teejay introduced himself, and she introduced herself as Jo Right. I then introduced myself, and she thanked us again for helping her.
We were searching the animal aisle, scanning varieties of books about reptiles, dogs, aquariums, but no turtles. Finally I went to a computer to search, while Jo told me she would wait in the aisle and continue looking. I searched for turtles, and found a book that I thought she would like. It was called "Seaturtles: The Behavior, Life, etc.. " and it said that it would likely be in the store under Animals: Animals: Aquatic Life.
So quickly I headed back to the aisle, seeing Teejay walking to the front desk. I was going to call him back because I found it, but I decided to tell Jo first. I walked into the aisle, and while she was still looking, I looked up and saw the last copy of the Seaturtle book. I smiled, grabbed it, and showed it to her. Her face lit up, as she said, "Oh honey! This is exactly, exactly what I am looking for! Oh thank you so much, dear! Oh thank you, thank you!”
She then told me she would go look at it and read, and she sat in a chair not too far away. I watched as she sat down in such bliss, smiling and flipping through the pages of the book, really engulfed in the pictures and the readings.
I had the hugest smile, and I went to find Teejay. I found him, and luckily he hadn’t asked anyone for help yet. I told him I found it, and he was so excited. We ran back to the aisle, and we saw Jo completely enjoying the book. We walked over to her, and she thanked us again and again. After telling her to have a wonderful day, we were able to walk away realizing that we had made a difference in someone’s life.
These days it’s hard to find someone to love. Once you find them, you don’t want to give up. And now I know that we’re both alone in this. It’s just me and you against the world.
And, what am I supposed to do? The alarms are going off in my head. And it’s dangerous.. Yes, it’s complicated. We’re the only ones who get it. The only ones that want this. The only ones who believe in love.
"…don’t get sucked up into everybody else’s call that really is not the call on your life. Fight to stay centered on what God is calling you to do. Don’t be double minded. If you believe you have a call on your life, then believe it—consistently. Don’t believe it on Monday, doubt it on Tuesday, believe it again on Wednesday, and then by Friday be ready to give it up because your circumstances are not good. Whatever your call may be, do it the best you know how, believing that you heard it from God.”
Everything happens for a reason, and whatever reason this may be.. that this spoke to me the way it did, I hope that I realize it soon. I just feel that I should be fighting for this, because it’s what I feel is right. I feel like if I do, then it really is what “God is calling you to do”, because it’s “believing that you heard it from God.” I feel like, somehow.. nothing would happen because if it’s faith that is really calling for this, then it’d be protected somehow. Sure, it sounds crazy, but that’s just what I think.
But it feels like I read this today for nothing. It didn’t change the decision that was made, and I feel like I’m not acting enough on it. It’s like He is handing me advice and I’m simply putting it to the side. I don’t ever want to feel like I’m ignoring Him like this.
I guess it’s a matter of time to wait and see what happens. It’ll be okay, because prayers never go unanswered. This is us, and I’m perfectly okay with that. I’m confident that what ever is supposed to happen will happen. And it comforts me to believe that what I’m hoping for will definitely be in the future.
"There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens.” —Ecclesiastes 3:1
"In contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such there is no law." —Galatians 5:22-23
But what is said and done, has already happened. No one said it was going to be easy. So here we go.. Day 1.
I don’t know what it is, but I woke up with the sun shining in my window, gave my lovely boyfriend a good morning call & we talked about our future (which was very adorable) and I’m about to get $150 today for babysitting.
SONG OF THE DAY: TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY by ICE CUBE —can you dig it?
I just wanna get up and run somewhere in some open space. Or do a happy dance. Or lay in the grass and look at clouds. Or make a smoothie. Or take a nice shower and feel all fresh and clean. Or turn on the radio and hope my current jam (California Gurls) is playing. AND BTW, I’m so pumped for dance practice tomorrow.. 8AM - MIDNIGHT? ..or later. I don’t know why, but I’m just super stoked. AH! Today is just such a feel good day.
P.S. If you’re reading this…I LOVE YOU, BOYFRIEND!
"…If you and I are to make our way prosperous and have good success in this life, we will definitely need to put our thoughts and words on something other than the problem that faces us. We need to stop thinking about the problem, talking about the problem, and sometimes, we even need to stop praying about the problem. If we have prayed, God has heard. I am not saying there is not a time for importunity; but often we say we are fellowshipping with God, when in reality we are fellowshipping with our problem…It is valuable to go out and do something enjoyable while you are waiting for God to solve your problem. You may not feel like it, but do it anyway. It will help you! Get your mind—and your mouth—off the problem!”
It’s when you learn from mistakes, you learn from your past, and you apply it to your future. It’s where you adjust to others, but maintain happiness within yourself and them. It’s where you put their feelings into consideration. It’s where you learn to forgive. It’s where you care so much that you wouldn’t let a bad day get in the way of what you’ve built for months. Love is the ability to bounce back. Love is being able to point out each others flaws, what doesn’t work, and things that you may not necessarily like, because you want them to be at their best. It’s the ability to accept that you’re not perfect, but you will try to be — just for them. Love is anything and everything good — It’s all of the above, but at the same time, nothing you can ever imagine. It’s not something easy to put on paper, so like always.. please read between the lines until you experience it for yourself, if you haven’t already.
I don’t care what other people say, but you are a priority. I want to be everything you’ve ever wanted and I want to be everything you need. I love the love we have, and I know that we can overcome anything that may come our way. I love you.
Today’s a new day.
…& It’s another amazing day, because it’s another day with you.
I had the most amazing, beautiful night (or I guess morning).
I felt fear and guilt, I also felt forgiveness. It’s the first time in my life where I’ve ever felt —as odd as this sounds— cradled and comforted by God. I truly and honestly felt shame for my actions, but after speaking with Him and hearing His words for me, I know that He is always there. He will always be there, no matter what. I’ve felt his love, and I know that this is his way of bringing me back to him. —Bring us back to him. It’s amazing.
"Joy is the irrepressible buoyancy you feel when you have been forgiven."
"Whatever may have happened in the past, it does not have to dictate our future. Regardless of what people may try to do to us, God can take it and turn it around for good. ‘We are assured and know that all things work together and are for good to and for those who love God and are called according to design and purpose’ (Romans 8:28). Sometimes we forget how big our God is. This is what you and I need to do. We need to put no confidence in the arm of the flesh, but rather trust ourselves entirely to the arm of the Lord."
"ight i hope here we go there once lived a…small elf in the snowy moutins of the north pole right around christmas time… you with me so far.. one day this elf, while working an 10 hour shift of toy making… little elf began assembling one of the hardest, and most complicated toy while building it he cut his right arm off and began to bleed profusleyyy in a panic! - the other elves began loading little elf onto the ambulance after many moths of recovery the little elf was in good condition - but still not fully recovered considering his right arm was missing Sant Clause fired the elf - because he couldnt build good enough because of the arm the elf went on a suicidel drinking binge which ended a week later when the elf checked into ELF rehab with ELF lindsey lohan a week later he was out and ditermined to go back to work straight back to the factoery, little elf had an idea he went into a small igloo in the corner and worked for hours glue, wood, nails, blood sprayed every where all the other little elfs wondered what little elf was up to… later…. Little elf emerged a new man he marched up to santa clause and smiled. Santa Clause shouted "WOWZER - you got ya job back!" the elf had created a wooden arm - toy thing to replace his lost limb and all was well in the north pole