But seek first the kingdom [of God] and his righteousness, and all these things will be given you besides. Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself.
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now,what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.” — Bob Marley
So you know what I say? Live righteously, Live in the present, Live in trust and security, and Live in love.
Don’t worry about what tomorrow holds, but embrace what you have now, and let your story unfold by itself. LIVE your life. Do it, it’s a good investment, trust me.
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running? Tech Support: What programs are running ?
Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades. Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error - Program not run on external components.” What should I do?
Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do? Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the “My Heart” directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back. Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
I don’t want a lot for Christmas, there is just one thing I need.
— Its the way you look at me, as if no one else were around. The way you scrunch up your nose, which is straight up ADORABLE. The way you let out a deep sigh, and turn slightly, ..to smile at me. The way you tuck my hair behind my ears, even though I don’t like them..cause you do. Because you don’t have to ask me to smile in pictures, I already am. Because we’ve mastered how to communicate in dinosaur. Because my aunties tell you their love stories, and the family is getting to love you. Now even my mom ..can see that I’m happy. Because you don’t know what to do when I’m mad, but its the cutest thing to see you try. Its the sudden attack of butterfly kisses, and the fact that you’re everything I didn’t even know I wanted.
& FACT: THIS WOULD BE AN ENDLESS LIST.
Knowing that Christmas is coming has got me feeling all bubbly inside.
IF YOU GOT THAT GOOD GOOD, Ladies, show em’ where its at! (;
— Cause when my man leave the house, I know he’s coming right back, I got that good good. I don’t worry about nobody taking mine, cause I know JUST the right things to do.
— SO LADIES, Let your man be the man when he’s in public, even though behind the scenes ya’ll be runnin’, Let him run with his boys, Let him play his little games, Let all those girls be wanting that, and don’t worry, HE’LL BE BACK.
Another year with you has been amazing. I love how close we’ve gotten compared to when I first met you..back in 7th grade? We weren’t even really friends then, but I always knew you were a sweetheart. :) Now we can look back in our past and remember a grip of times where we’ve laughed and all that good stuff. You’ve been there for me when I needed you, and always know that I will do the same, should you ever need me. Even if we’re a little “awkward balloon” sometimes, —heh, we won’t ever be able to let that go— I got you, ALWAYS! Thank you for EVERYTHING you have given me, namely your friendship. I LOVE you birthday girl! Have an AMAZING one, :)
Me thinking of you, thinking of me, thinking of you type love.
“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.”
I love how I can honestly say that I’m happy with what I have in life. I don’t want more, and I don’t want less. I’ll never ask you for more than you can give. This is what I want. It’s just crazy how I always knew that this is what I’ve always wanted, but now that I have it, and realize that I have it, life can’t get any better than this.
It can only get better from here. I’m convinced on that.
A lot has happened in the past few days. Things that were once kept secret are now out in the open. Its accepted, generally. I’m happy.
"I’m still holding your hand.. Are you still holding mine?"
Of course, &its not going to be put out in the open for everyone. But those who know already are just fine as an audience. Some of which belong to a fanclub, heh. ;)
&I have to admit, we’re only human. Choices have been made, and every consequence has been considered. We’ve endured them, and its come to reality that, “This isn’t gonna be easy.”
Good things come for those who wait. Those are also the things worth fighting for.
"Hold your ground. Always know, I’m standin with u. :)"
Its great to hear the things you need to hear, at exactly the right moment. Its when the world seems too much, and someone comes along to give you that feeling of the world being lifted off your shoulders, and everything is right again. Its amazing the way I look at life ..with such a positive outlook. :)
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." ~Psalm 37:4
I don’t wanna wake, before, this dream is over. :)
—- btw, shoutout to my boy DROSS (http://www.sd-djs.com) &my girls AMACK, ADAAAAWG, andreaSALVANI, &katieHo. (; <3 ^^ HAH WOW
“I don’t know. It’s like, when I’m with you, I just, I never know what’s going to happen next. It’s weird, because my life is so planned out. It’s like, you don’t care what people think. And when I’m with you, I don’t care what people think.”—Crazy/Beautiful (via fuckyeahhappy)
In contrast, the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such there is no law.
And to see how each and every one is becoming more and more evident in my life. Because love knows no boundaries. Because joy should be my middle name. Because peace is in mind and radiant. Because patience is truly becoming a virtue. Because kindness can bring something so simple to completely new levels. Because generosity is no longer a task, but second nature. Because faithfulness is vital and uplifting. Because gentleness of voice and touch has never been so soothing. Because self-control has never been so easy.
And because, these are things you cannot restrain, but should let be, to plant their roots and flourish on their own.
Take me to Belmont park, even if I only have an hour and a half to see you. And run to each ride with me, so we don’t waste time. I’m competitive, but don’t let me win. I like a fair win. Help me get ready, put on makeup, and fix my hair. Play the only song you know on the guitar for me, and try your best to sing that song, while still trying to remember the chords. Try your best to warm me when I’m cold. Take me to a park and talk with me for hours, without noticing how fast the time goes by. When it gets too cold, lets go back to the car to warm up. ;) Take care of me when I’m sick, and maybe throw a kitkat in there, if that’s not asking too much. Look at me in the eyes, and tell me everything you feel about me. I promise to do the same.
And I’m sorry if I fall asleep on the phone with you. Atleast know that the last person that was on my mind…was you. :) And go to church with my family, meet some of my aunts, respect my grandpa, and win over my little brother. Make the best impression on them, because I know you can. Thank you in advance for bonding with the fam, even though no one is asking you to. Make a lasting impression, they’ll adore you. You clean up well, regardless of whether you’re dressed up, or dressed down. You smell amazing, and my aunts swoon over you. Play House of the Dead, Jurassic Park, Air Hockey, Tekken, and DDR with me. Make a small engraved plate with me, with our pictures. Smile with me.
"I promise, we’ll make it if we try, just the two of us. So darling, open your eyes. Let me show the light, I’m gonna take you so high. And maybe later we can go up to the moon, or sail among the stars before the night is through. When the morning comes, we’ll see the sun is not so far..And we can’t get much closer to God, than where we are. Love will overcome, while those who don’t believe and see, will fail you..but don’t trip, cause we got this.. Cause where there is love, I’ll be there."
formspring makes it so you can see if the same person asks more than one question..cause it shows their IP address. So, if you’ve asked multiple questions, I know. haha! Of course it can’t say who you are, but now I know your IP address.
—kinda makes me a little uncomfortable, cause questions I thought were from other people, were actually from another.
Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Thank you. I’m hoping the unease and anxiety I have left from this morning will subside soon. It is. I think.
“Lately you been questioning ..if I still see you the same way, cause through these trying years, We gonna both physically change. Don’t you know you’ll always be the most beautiful woman I know. So let me reassure you darling that, My feelings are trulyunconditional.
The way I feel for you will always be the same, Just as long as your love, don’t change. I was meant for you, and you were meant for me. And I’ll make sure that I’ll be everything you need. Girl, the way we are is how its gonna be, Just as long as your love, don’t change.
Cause honestly I believe, that your beauty is way morethan skin deep. Cause everything about you, makes me feel I have the greatest gift in the world.”
I urge you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship. Do not conform yourself to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect.
Let love be sincere; hate what is evil, hold on to what is good; love one another with mutual affection; anticipate one another in showing honor.
In this generation, it is widely accepted to almost advertise, abuse, disrespect, and take your own body for granted. I’m not going to conform to this era, in terms of this ” situation “. I’m learning the things you teach me, I promise.. because even if I’m quiet, it doesn’t mean I’m not listening. I’m taking everything in, I’m taking you in. So teach me, “I say show me the way…cause I’m willing to let go of all of my fears. Show me where to start”. Because you’ve opened my eyes to a completely different view, far from anything I’ve ever experienced. You have values, and I love that those include the time spent with me. And knowing that you’re the way you are is more than I expected, because just sharing these feelings with you was already more than enough.
& I won’t just pretend I love. Cause for those I love, I will genuinely love them. I’ll look at the world with a positive mindset, and make sure to embrace every good occurence that I encounter. Because any good thing that will happen to me is a blessing in itself. And to realize that it is a blessing, is the concept of realization. I think I said this in an earlier post, but once again, its all about realization, justification, and taking control. I’ve concluded that the reality of the way my life is unfolding is, unbelievable. Everything seems to be falling into place nicely, yet it still comes with the excitement of the prime of anything worth being excited for. And to have mutual lovejustifies everything thats been crossing my mind for this past month and a half. It feels great to have this justification, because this bliss is seemingly too good to be true. They say bliss is ignorance, but what am I really ignoring? It’s what we’re choosing to ignore, or atleast put aside until matters can be seen in a different light; a better one. Because right now isn’t the time to expose something that just isn’t part of the status quo. But I’m taking holdof what I have because it’s amazing the way I feel. I can’t stress enough the feelings that I’m basically engulfed in, because its just crazy. I don’t know how this happened really, I mean, I think I do. But, come on let’s get real. What is this?! :) &To have such a respect for one another is amazing. Any relationship if anything has to have respect present, and the ability to honor one another through their brightest and even not so bright moments is the epitome of love, care, and understanding.
We have come to know and to believe in the love God has for us. God is love, and whoever remains in love remains in God, and God in him. In this is love brought to perfection among us, that we have confidence on the day of judgement because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment, and so one who fears is not yet perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.
Thank you for everything, the things you do have changed my life with such a positive impact; It’s definitely a beautiful thing.
No one has ever gone to to such great heights the way you have.
God, you have told him not to interfere with your creation of a woman, because she was derived from the rib, protecting the heart and lungs that support him. You have taught him not to underestimate a woman, because she is strong. You have told him to respect and honor a woman, because although she shows great strength, she is still delicate and fragile. You clearly stated that she will not be more and less than he. But rather that, you have showed him that she will be next to him; a partner. You’ve given him a gift.
So God, I’ll do my best to be the rib that will allow itself to be broken before ever reaching his heart. I’ll share my characteristics with the rib, of being strong, yet delicate and fragile. You did not take me from his feet to be under him, and you did not take me from his head to be above him. But you took me from his side, to stand by him and be close to him. I am a part of you, God, ..because you’ve held your heart close to mine. You fashioned me with holiness, strength, purity, love, and support. However, you created him alone, and so he walked alone. But now that I am walking with him, I’ll try my best to hold every and any sense of you, in me.
colleen,: What is your favorite song to slow dance to at the moment?
I’m really not sure.. pretty much any song from that song compilation in one of my earlier posts. BUT, this one song I’ve been stuck on lately is “Gentleman Don’t” by Gabe Bondoc. LOVE IT!
colleen,: aleex abuttin !
BESIDES THAT, so I haven’t been able to write write something in a little bit.
BUT JSYW, I’m happier than ever ever. This MUST be getting old, cause I’ve been happy for the longest now, but best believe… this time in my life has been the greatest. Today is November 5th, and it is currently 9:25 PM. This morning at 2:24AM, something PHENOMENAL happened. (: &I would love to share it with you, but I’m not THAT open. (;
But basically, my days have been amazing and I am loving the life I’m living. I’m not feeling inspired enough to be super poetic and articulate, so I won’t.
So, the majority of these formSpring “questions” from yesterday weren’t so positive or a little abstract, but I told you I’d answer anything, so here we go:
colleen,: i really respect you, and i think the way you carry yourself is suitable for a role-model. you know how to balance everything which i think is crazy. plus, you seem to have mad experience in your love life but i think its cool how you are mature and respectable about it all
colleen,: to be honest, you kind of elude a sense of over-confidence and sometimes it’s annoying. but my question is, how do you get your hair the way it is?
:/ I don’t want to be seen as over-confident. I’m really not. But uh, my hair is just naturally like this. &I cut it myself.. so yeah.
colleen,: Don’t push your relationship with a person too hard, if its meant to be then it will happen.
That’s my advice for people. But, uh..I don’t know what you’re trying to say to me, cause the relationships I do have are mutual, not just one-way.
colleen,: I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
Why would you do that? And.. this isn’t really a question. If you’re trying to say that I’m trying to make someone love me.. you’re mislead. Because I’m not trying for anyone. I like where I’m at. I have everything I want right now, I’m happy with my life.
And I’m definitely not the type to stalk some kid hoping they’ll love me. Not on that paparazzi type shit.
Donkey: Simplicity and sturdiness. Success in your undertakings, whether of travel or love. Surrounded by loyal friends.
Butterfly: Everything related to beauty and grace. They are an indication of prosperity and fair attainments.
Octopus: There are associated with shyness and grasping. You will be loved for your sweetness of disposition.
Whale: They are related with power and strength. Good times are coming. There is a great truth that you are ready to accept.
I really like these actually, haha. But you’re kinda putting me up there. I’m not that great?! Especially the whole everything related to beauty and grace.. haha! I’m intrigued that you actually took the time to seek these out.
colleen,: i know you said you wanna keep this new “mister” a mystery for now, but when do you think you’ll actually be completely open about it?
Did I ever say I had a “mister”?!
colleen,: Would you go on a roadtrip with me?
Down for a roadtrip, but.. with “me”, I don’t know yet. Heh. Define “me”.
colleen,: What’s your middle name?
colleen,: youre like super happy like all the timee, you didnt used to be like that, well i mean like you were always happy but now youre like super happy, is that true? whyyy?
YES! IT IS TRUE! This past month and a half have been AMAAAAAZING! AND I LOVE IT! AND IM HAPPY! AND (*LKDJSFIjs8HRG98shrT7UEGHR97GHSR. :D Life is gooood.
Why? Because everything happens to be going my way, don’t you read my blogs?! Heh. (:
colleen,: Name the clothing store you shop at the most?
colleen,: What is your religion or do you not really have one?
I am Catholic. :)
colleen,: Which is the song that makes you cry?
I’m not really sure of a song that makes me cry, but one song that kinda keeps me going if I happen to be in a depressed mood (WHICH I RARELY AM) is ” The Voice Within ” by Christina Aguilera. Good stuff.
colleen,: Do you read the Bible?
Honestly, I don’t. But I’m actually kinda interested in starting to.
colleen,: Do you like short or long hair on a guy?
Short. :) Not too short though. Shortest, maybe like a three. Longest.. if its flat down, it won’t go past your ears. Not really a big fan of long hair on guys. I like it when guys can be able to like gel, spike, or mold it. Or when I can like mess it up, and stuff..but okay idk. haha I don’t know where this is going.
colleen,: So hypothetically speaking.. ;) Say that you’re MINE. How would you answer these 2 questions.
ONE: Is there something about your boyfriend that you hope to change?
TWO: What do I really want from this relationship?
THANKS ~some guy from El Cajon
Haha, okay. (:
Well, I don’t know who my hypothetical boyfriend is, so don’t know if I would change anything.. HAHA! Fail. But, basically..as long as you’re caring, considerate, respectful, funny, knows how to have a good time, trusting, trustWORTHY, committed, cute, the list goes on.. then you’re good. :)
WHAT I DON’T LIKE IS: Arrogant, OVER-Confident (confidence is sexy, but when you over do it, its just a turn off), Rude, Ignorant, Condescending, Distracted, Distant, Unopen to new people/things/change, Materialistic, CLINGY..
In general: I want a relationship that is new, fresh, un-routine, exciting. I want to feel amazing with them, no matter the circumstance. I wanna be able to just sit in a blank room with them, and still have the greatest time. And it shouldn’t be expected, because love is a feeling, not a plan. I just want something real.
In a relationship, I want: A guy who makes the simplest things mean the world to me. A guy who I can be completely myself around, and not be scared of being judged. A guy who will make me happy, and make me wanna tell all my friends about the cute things he does for me. A guy who will fight being sleepy because they like talking to me. A guy who doesn’t have to be at my side at every waking minute, but still values spending time with me. A guy who misses me as much as I miss him.
"I want someone who can’t wait to kiss me again, even though its been a minute since they last did. Want someone who loves love songs, and dedicates them to me, &two loving arms, never out of reach."-P.DeAnda
"It’s like yesterday, I didn’t even know your name. Now today you’re always on my mind. I never could’ve predicted that I’d feel this way. Intoxicated everytime I hear your voice, You’ve got me on a natural high. &I don’t know what it is that you’ve done to me, but it’s caused me to act in such a crazy way..
Cause remember those walls I built? Well baby, they’re tumbling down. They didn’t even put up a fight. No they didn’t even make a sound. I found a way to let you in, but I never really had a doubt. &I don’t wanna wake, before, the dream is over, ..cause I want this forever, I swear I could spend whatever on it, cause baby you’re my everything, you’re all I ever wanted. We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it.
Cause you give me more loving than I’ve ever had. Give me more loving from the very start, I’m so glad I found you, I love being around you. You make it easy, as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4. &though I’ve memorized your smile now, I’m still mesmerized, I’m still hypnotized.. Cause everytime I think of it, I pinch myself cause, I don’t believe its true, that someone like you loves me too.. &You’re just too good to be true, can’t take my eyes off of you.
All of the things that I want to say just aren’t coming out right. I’m tripping on words, you’ve got my head spinning, I don’t know where to go from here. But don’t you worry there my honey, cause maybe I think you’re cute and funny, and maybe I wanna do what bunnies do, with you, if you know what I mean..
And I think we got something special, boy you and me, together we’ll take over the world, you know I love you, I love you so, so happy I just wanna let everybody know. But we don’t confirm the fling, keep avoiding all the questions, you could teach me so many things..and I think I’m a little bit, a little bit in love with you. But only if you’re a little bit, a little bit in love with me.
I mean there’s gotta be something for me to write this, but I won’t hesitate no more, no more..it cannot wait, I’m yours.. So Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone, I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run..”
I still don’t know who you are.. IM SORRY! Um um, introduce yourself..?
colleen,: you are the most creative person I kno. Where do you get your inspiration from?
EVERY DAY PEOPLE, THINGS, AND VIBES! Duuuuu’, embrace life. You’ll love it(;
colleen,: you are so happy and jumpy about something nowadays. That’s great. My aunt was the same way until she told us that she was engaged. Is there a “coat and a bow tie” to this happiness of yours? And if so, what did this “mister” do to break down your natural personal walls? I know you’re still in high school, but you did say to ask you anything. So ball’s in your court if you’re game.
Well, let’s just say that “coat and a bow tie” is a possibility. Let’s keep things mysterious yes?(; But regarding any “misters” breaking down walls, let’s get real. For anything like that to happen to ANYONE, you have to keep it real, communicate, understand, and reassure. But the walls won’t come down consciously. Walls truly come down when you don’t notice, and you’ll realize later exactly why they disappeared. It’s a feeling, not a plan. :)
colleen,: you’re cool! smile with your teeth!
LOL! Maybe :D
colleen,: do you like someone new?
I’m starting to wonder if 23487 people are actually wondering this, or if it’s just like, one person asking over and over again? HAHA! But let’s put it this way. I’ve moved on from the past. &I’m onto bigger and better things. BE HAPPY!