I think I can just ramble on and on and on about this..BUT I CAN’T STRESS ENOUGH, how happy I really am. Everything in my life is going my way, and I wish I could have just sent an audio call to tumblr or something because I knew exactly what I wanted to say in this post, but I’ll try my best to remember what I said.
So basically, it’s so hard to explain how I feel right now be
cause there are just so many emotions that I’m feeling. BUT KNOW THAT…they are all happy, positive ones. :) It’s like, what’s happening in my life right now has become the missing piece to the puzzle. It’s the piece that finally fits, and it comes with the same satisfaction. It doesn’t just add something on top of my life, but it contributes to it, blends into it, and compliments it. It feels complete, and I love this feeling. I don’t ever want to let go of this.
"You haven’t given me a reason, so why should I?"
We’re not going to give reasons. :)
I’ve put so much of myself into this, and it’s so surprising because the biggest walls have come down, and I feel just fine being able to stop hiding behind these guards. It’s not that my guard is no longer up, but really its the fact that I’m so comfortable, I don’t care about that anymore! I can honestly put 100% into this, and I’m okay with that! I’m no longer afraid because I have trust in this. I don’t have to be scared anymore, because I’m confident that I’ll be just fine.
I wonder really,
"Did I do something right? Should I really be taking advantage of this event happening to me? Am I supposed to be going through this? Is this a reward or something? Should I really have such a blessing in my life?"
Answer: YES YES YES YES AND YES. This energy has got me bouncing off the walls, I’m so happy. Life has a whole new meaning for me. I’m inspired to showcase it all. I’m inspired to be a better person. I’ve mastered how to live, love, and learn.. After you learn, again you can love, and the idea of LIVING needs to be embraced!
It’s all about justification, realization, and taking control.
Because you may have those thoughts, and you may have those things that you chose to pursue. Think positively, things will go your way. And when they do, that’s the justification. And then comes the realization of what just happened to you. I know this may be a little vague, or a little abstract, but make what you can of it, because I have no idea how to express the way I feel. Take control of the situation, own it, and live it.
I feel great about this, and I can honestly say that I have expectations on this one.
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive.
I can’t keep up, and I can’t back down, I’ve been losing so much time.
There isn’t enough time, I need more. :)
Cause it’s you and me.
I’m tripping on words, you’ve got my head spinning.